I think I want to try either getting one of the computer certificates or just majoring in computer sciences. I want to know more about computers, like coding and such, and I want to do something with them like computer programming or something. I am very, very wary about this because I'm afraid I won't be smart enough to tackle something like this. I'm wary of it, because a few years ago I told my fiance (then boyfriend) that I wanted to try Web Design, and he said "are you sure? That might be kinda hard." And that planted a seed of doubt in my mind which grew into me telling myself that I wouldn't be able to do something like that and I ended up not pursuing it. I also often hear the words my grandma said to me a year or two ago; she said "you used to be so smart." Which I then convince myself that yes I am stupid and should be pursuing something else.
I need to STOP doing that to myself. I need to STOP doubting myself when others doubt me. I need to STOP putting myself down all the time and making myself think I'm stupid. What I NEED is to have faith in myself. I know that's going to be hard because I have low self-esteem.
